Let It Go Out

I don’t want to
Stream your tears across the canvas of my heart

I don’t want to
Fall apart to the sound of a restart

I don’t want to
Pretend that there’s a coolness
A cold air, a distance

I don’t want to
Watch a fire try to burn
And let it go out

I keep smoking my chances at life away
I keep loving and losing 
I keep waking and bruising
But I’ve been hoping I can make a move to stay
Cause I used to be afraid of this city
The people within it,
Didn’t think I could live here
But I wouldn’t have it any other way

I don’t know much about belonging
But I know that I’ll be longing for you
This world is one big puzzle
And we are all mere pieces
It’s more than just convenience
To be placed right next to you
And no matter how it changes
I know what i will choose

You ask so subtly
Clinging to my chest
“Why are you so distant?
Is it that i can’t impress?”
And so my heart it shatters
Into a charade
Cause you keep me guessing
Yeah, guessing love is a game

And now I can’t believe 
Any word that you say
Fighting with a vengeance unresolved attacking me
And so my heart it shatters
It only fuels the fire
Didn’t want to let it go out 
Now I am devoured