xii. suffer in silence

i feel like carrie invited to the party
you say it’s on wednesday at your friend’s place
how did a year of miscommunication end up here?
i try to shut you out but you have a way of appearing again

am i the fool with their hand on the gun?
you look so cool in the shade of the sun

i don’t know what else to do
i don’t feel like myself when i’m with you
if thou shalt not suffer a witch to live
then why, when we meet, do you continue to give

am i the fool with their hand on the gun?
you look so cool in the shade of the sun
it’s only target practice, but still you run
and as i look up, i’m met with blood

combatting eye movements when you are near
tell me why do you follow all that you fear
i know you’ll never see me clear
it’s just a lil crush in which i wanna draw you near
and so i suffer in the silence
god, your eyes are violent
saying everything that your tongue could never do
i think that it’s better if you forget about me
cause all that i am will never be for you

a trick of the mind
a slight of hand
am i divine
or a hellion?
sin never dies
and so i live