trying

maybe I’ll kill myself before I’m 26
maybe I’ll see if life gets better than this

cause I’ve tried all I can
and I’ve stood more than I can withstand
and I’m sick of trying

my mama keeps her fingers crossed
that each time she sees me it won’t be the last
but how can I live with an unspoken past
and not be haunted by that?

so if you’ve got some
tough shit, say it to my face
and if you don’t like me then walk away
cause I’m tired of filling my life with people that mean nothing to me
so if you have to lie
lie in bed
and not to my face

I’m sick of trying