Unattainable

I know what I need but I just won’t face it
Pleasure is jading all of my decisions
Aching for instant gratification
I shield myself from these mechanisms

My mind is nothing short of a goddamn prison
And I fear that I’m captive by misaligned intentions
My authentic self is bleeding out
My inner child is needing help

It’s a hedonistic ritual
Clinging close to what we know
Baptized by Percy on the weekdays
Caught in the haze of midday sun rays

You call me up asking if I was okay
When I’m reverting back to my old ways

Cause I’m just a lil guy
We all love and then we die
And this tear in my eye
Means I try
Try
Try
To tell you
”I love you”

It’s all shit when we get down to it
My actions are wrong for me
But I’ll never forfeit

Knowing you
Knowing me
You won’t let me forget

All I want
All I need
Is unattainable