The Enemy

It’s too late for me to be thinking about this shit
I’ve got work in a couple of hours
This is no time for a crisis
I was just hoping to get a little digital fix
Something akin to closeness
No skin to skin to notice
How I’m disinterested in everyone
And I get kinda sick whenever I come
Cause I don’t know what I’ve done

I’ve been feeling suicidal
At least in my head
And I don’t have anybody to share that with
I thought that you would notice
I was nearing a cliff
But it’s beauty from the shore

Hands held at a distance
We fold into fragments
I traversed the country
Still you are always with me

I’m half as bad and twice the enemy
As when you met me back in 2015
We were burnouts then
Just kids

Already addicted

You think I’m too caught up in my head
I can’t fight that
I'm worried about what would happen
If I take a step back

“Aren’t you tired of sinning”
I shook my head and said
“I’m tired of these implications”
So we cut all communication

Six months later
I asked how you’ve been
You took me to the lake
Said “you’re my only friend”
As we swam with fingers crossed
So scared of getting caught

Hands held at a distance
We fold into fragments
All that we desired
Will never be remembered

I’m half as bad and twice the enemy
As when you met me back in 2019

We were crashing cars, breaking hearts
Trading scars like trading cards
There was a minute
And I’ll admit it

It was at that party, Lakeford Dr
I was fucking terrified
It’s like you planned it
Caught me red handed

Torch my body
I am the one
I am the martyr
Who built this kingdom
I am the one
I am the villain