The One

I confess, I’ve been using again
But I don’t know how to stop caring

I’ve been asking these questions
And they keep me up at night
I wish I could call you
But I don’t want to start a fight

Do you think of me
Or do you only see his eyes?
I know that you’ve been searching
For a long, long time

I was the one before the one
I was the one who made you run

I never learned the difference between
Hope and fear

Cause every time I hoped 
For someone to get better
They would disappear

Now I’m standing here
Stuck in your doorway
Cause I know it’s the last chance
I have to see your face
But I have enough memories to replace
And I’m afraid that it’s me whom you erased

I was the one before the one
I was the one who made you run
I was the one that made you realize
I was the one in another lifetime

We’re all entitled to our own emotions
But fuck me for feeling pathetic
When I start to show it
The denial is growing
But so am I, and I best be going

Because one day, I will admit
You were the one before the one
You were the one who made me run
You were the one that made me realize
You were the one in another lifetime